Twelve days till Christmas.....

I am so glad Christmas is almost here and gone. I always wish for the month of December to come and go faster than all the other months in the year. My December last year was surprisingly one of the happiest I have had for a very long time. Something happened to me last year that I will never forget and will cherish for the rest of my life. That's all I can really say about that. I was able to do some x-mas shopping today. I picked up a few things for the kids and although it was a little crowded the places I went it was nice to get through the checkouts rather fast. It was 8 degrees F today so it was a little on the breezy side to say the least but all in all it was a good shopping day. Last week I had one of my finals for school and I managed to pass the class with a 75 for the final grade. I have one more final this week due and I think I will do well on it enough to pass that class as well. It takes a lot of stress off me knowing I am going to pass the classes I took this quarter as some of my other quarters I didn't fair so well. I need to get registered for winter classes and should of done that a month ago but it is hard to register for classes when you are not sure if your going to pass the ones your taking which are prerequisites for other classes coming up. I'm just glad I have a little break before classes start on the 4th of January.

I found out a few days ago my daughter Jennifer is going to have a boy and a girl for her babies. I am excited for her and her husband Clark and their families. I hope sometime this year I will be able to see them all. Time will tell on that one I guess. It took me about a month to get a letter back to Jennifer. I have been so busy and I had the letter wrote out but just didn't get it mailed and kept adding to it but I finally managed to get it sent off to her in the mail and she has I'm sure received it. I look forward to hearing from her soon. I know she is very busy with things in her life with the twins coming and getting things organized I'm sure.

 

My situation with my other daughter Dori seems to being going ok is I guess the best I can describe it. It is frustrating for me at times dealing with the emotional things I am feeling in regards to her.It is very hard to read Dori at times. I had her about a week ago for the weekend and it was a interesting weekend. I say that cause I just wasn't sure how she was feeling really. She at times seemed like she was totally ok and then other times she just seemed distant from me. Almost every weekend she stays her she cry's and misses her mommy and other family and wants to go home. I find it very frustrating. I want her to get used to being with me and the other kids here and for the most part she does rather well but its when night time comes that she seems to have the most difficulty being here. She is a mommas girl and I guess I have not really had to deal with that with my own kids that have been around me all the time. I would so much like her to love me as much as her mom but I just don't know if that is ever going to happen. I don't even feel she really thinks about me when she is with her mom and other family. I really just don't know what to think or do about the situation other than just keep doing what I am doing. Picking her up on my weekends and trying to spend as much time with her as I can. Maybe when she gets older she will get better. It's hard to be around a child that just doesn't seem that interested in being with you.