I find it interesting to see how a simple conversation can turn into a complete argument about things that don't matter anymore. Why is that. Why do we allow others to pull our chains and we react to them knowing that in the end were just gonna end up pissed off and angry. I think its cause we don't wanna be wrong about things. We wanna validate our actions or whatever and think we have to convince the other person that were right and there in the mean time trying to convince us that there right. This is something I find that I am dealing with in my situations with my x's sometimes. Y I don't freakin know..well I do. I allow them to pull my chains and I allow myself to get pulled into the situation where I don't wanna belong. I have much to learn.
Ok enough about that shit. So what has been going on with me lately besides having my head up my ass when dealing with the kids mothers. I have to say that there hasn't been a damn thing going on really. I am still layed off of work even though I did get to work 4 days in the last 2 weeks. Thank god for those unemplyment checks. I have been thinking of looking for another job with a different company cause my boss just hasn't been able to get any jobs lately that will keep a few of us busy for a long period of time. In all my time as an electrician I have never seen it be this slow. I am worried about what is going to happen. There doesn't seem to be anyone hiring at the moment cause everone else seems to be slow as well.. I dont want to relocate to anywhere cause of the kids and school. And I really dont want to commute. What to do...I am glad that I do have friends and family that understand my situation and offer to help in anyway they can. That makes it a lot easier to not worry so much about things.
