He said She said..

I find it interesting to see how a simple conversation can turn into a complete argument about things that don't matter anymore. Why is that. Why do we allow others to pull our chains and we react to them knowing that in the end were just gonna end up pissed off and angry. I think its cause we don't wanna be wrong about things. We wanna validate our actions or whatever and think we have to convince the other person that were right and there in the mean time trying to convince us that there right. This is something I find that I am dealing with in my situations with my x's sometimes. Y I don't freakin know..well I do. I allow them to pull my chains and I allow myself to get pulled into the situation where I don't wanna belong. I have much to learn.

Ok enough about that shit. So what has been going on with me lately besides having my head up my ass when dealing with the kids mothers. I have to say that there hasn't been a damn thing going on really. I am still layed off of work even though I did get to work 4 days in the last 2 weeks. Thank god for those unemplyment checks. I have been thinking of looking for another job with a different company cause my boss just hasn't been able to get any jobs lately that will keep a few of us busy for a long period of time. In all my time as an electrician I have never seen it be this slow. I am worried about what is going to happen. There doesn't seem to be anyone hiring at the moment cause everone else seems to be slow as well.. I dont want to relocate to anywhere cause of the kids and school. And I really dont want to commute. What to do...I am glad that I do have friends and family that understand my situation and offer to help in anyway they can. That makes it a lot easier to not worry so much about things.

What to do.

Nothing to interesting has been going on in the life of Tony lately. I have been laid off from work for about a month which sucks, work is slow. On a good note though it has given me more time to spend with the kids and to mess around with some of my other interests. I haven't been doing to much really. I have been mostly reading a lot on photography stuff. That is one of my other main interests other than missile silo stuff. I purchased a new telephoto lens for my camera. I had been wanting to get one and with my income tax return I was able to invest in one. I have taken it out to a few locations to take a few shots to see what It can do and I haven't been disappointed. Here are a few shot I have taken with it. I have more photos on my Flick page.





I am looking forward for spring to get here so I can get out and take some more pictures. Hopefully that will be soon.